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i knew my parents were nuts...apparently the squirrels do too [11 Dec 2005|04:07pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

(late elementary time)
squirrel #1
a lil baby in the warm spring time gets in runs up and down curtains im at school, mom fends off on her own.....happy ending? mom bashes out screen in her bedroom screaming and shooing the lil thing out the window where it got on a brick pillar and proceeded to yell at her for scaring it.

(middle school/very early highschool)
squirrel #2
a larger much more intellegent one, found walnuts in the basement, after primary food source was removed, cat food made a good enough replacement. decided the warmer dry basement looked much better then the cold wet fall looking weather outside. squirrel is sitting on first basement landing where the cat food is...looks up at mom and then looks back downstairs and walks down there knowing it can return to the ample food source....happy ending? well we did get the squirrel out of the house...eight ball corner pocket? yea after the bee bee gun didnt work he got a pool que to the head...

(today, around noonish time)
squirrel #3
upstairs minding my own buisness...mom walks into kitchen to take plate in...SCREAMS. squirrel throws rock at mom or perhaps when she screamed it scared the lil thing so much that the rock fell when it ran for its life. i run downstairs to mom screaming more and eventually gettin the word squirrel out of her mouth. seeing that it is just a lil critter the thoughts of my mom was dying or being made dead are out of my head and i yell at her to close off the dining room and living room doors so we can keep it somewhat contained. go upstairs get shoes. come back down...she lost it. it eventually makes it onto the front porch after scaling our walls a few times and scurrying around the bottom of the christmas trees....front porch it runs and runs and runs and climbs...and eventually makes it out the front door completely clearing the front steps and only taking about 10 steps to get across the yard to a safe and familiar tree.

3 times in the last 10 years? who else has a track record like that? i mean, come on. honestly?

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[27 Nov 2005|05:45pm]
you know, ive never really liked being put in the middle of things. who's side do i take? or do i take a side at all. do i let this run its course and see where it takes me? will i loose something else out of this or will i gain the knowledge that some say i will get. is this a learning tool im given with no real way to portray it? well im not sure. i do know for sure, however, that i hang onto the past to tightly. and that i hope to much. im not saying there isnt hope out here anymore, im just saying the kind of hope i have isnt there very much anymore. my hope...yea thats right, we all have our own hope. well my hope is the hope of 'friendship' is sacred, very sacred. and in order to have a healthy relationship there must be 'head-butting' or fights. but if the other person who is fighting doesnt hold said quote 'friendship' in as much value as you do, then said 'friendship' is lost....and given up easily. which makes me start to have horrid little thoughts in my head about who i should have trusted in the first place. which brings me back around to i should trust my 'friends' unless they give me reason not to. but with as many times as i have been saddend by 'friends' im still willing to give this trust. maybe its all a part of being human, maybe im to gullable. maybe people know im gullable and they use that to their advantage against me. my 'friends'. maybe im just here for that purpose. or maybe this is just a load of shit. either way i think i have decided what im going to do. im not taking sides. i not supporting one side of the party or the other. ive said my peace to those involved, and i will let this run its course.
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mmm tacos [13 Nov 2005|01:13pm]
[ mood | gooey and sneezy ]

ive been tootling around in my room and discovered it clean after my so called 'tootling' hehehe. john has introduced me to RPG things. and ive become addicted to the one i have. i know im late in joining this game but poo, i dun care. i'll eventually make it to all the bigger more glorious games out there....still not much interest other then just watching FF, no playing.

ive been fighting target to get the times off for the heidi. i think i took enough time off to make sure everything is ready and to pick her up and for me and her to pick up ky-ian and to have some time off in DEC ahahahahaha. BUT! its all paid because bihotches i have aquired enough time to take more then a full 40 hr week of from work and get paid for it. but dont let all this planning get you fooled, oh no, im still on the hunt for a more exiting and much better job then said target. but as we all know, if im still sadly with target by the end of dec, guess whos going back to the dentist. oh yea baby, more free teeth work. hehe. im still not quite done yet. but i have to have $230 up front for my next bit of work, ohhhh yea. then after the 1st of the year, its all cavity style yo. (and making the save of my lone baby tooth. hehe)

so i woke up this morning nice and snuggly warm under my blanket and i realized that i didnt feel good. arg. i knew this was going to happen. this screwy weather i say, screwy. so now im sick, im not sure to what extent, but i am none-the-less. my nose is all leaky, and throat hurts as about the same as it did when i woke up. im going to need to snack on crackers or something so it stops hurting.

I have discovered the best way to saving money, besides a savings account. and it is the simplest thing in the world! i just simply put all my plastic things that have 'money' and ones that do have money (debit card) in a basket somewhere where no one will find them and i just leave them at home. :D go me. no more money spending. hahahaha i win this war poor-dom.

on a happy side note, i have a bucket of gummies that are shaped like lil brains. they are yummy. hehe. go me. i rule.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand cut.

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[21 Oct 2005|12:18pm]
[ mood | bored ]

so i did something prolly a bunch of people thought id wait years to do. i went to the dentist last wednesday :) and im going back again this upcomming wednesday :). i went because lots of you know i had a broken tooth. now its not so broken. 1 root canal and probably a crown later it'll be better (it has a temp filling in it right now). but until the later of that happens i have to have a oral exam. those pesty wisdom teeth havent even surfaced yet. bastards. so i figure i'll get my large dental debt started now so by the time im my parents age i wont have such a large debt to work off. so everyone be proud of me i went there scared as hell, i didnt even cry or wimper. i said ehhh! ehhhh! when he started cuz it hurt a lil bit then i got about 4 or 5 more novicane(sp) shots and that was the end of feeling. hehehehehehe. anywho. i was just lettin everyone know my bravery(at least to me) for the week.

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[14 Oct 2005|08:57pm]
[ mood | squished ]

yay for the squishy...i got a letter from west suburban, im going to call and bitch. i have to. i cant let something like this job get away from me so easily. and i cant stand to stay at target....



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me? new job? maybe? lets hope [30 Sep 2005|01:32am]
**************((((((((((((((((mass comment to everyone that commented on the last entry!!!!!))))))))))))))))))))*********************

well i had the interview and i say it went well. we talked for about an hour and a half, and now im waiting for a phone call to tell me yay or ney....so here's hopin...it should get here in about a week...or a lil more....OMG I NEED THIS!! *calm*

((andy you should go apply, its the west suburban bank right on douglas, by pizza hut. they are hiring for EVERYTHING!))
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target who? [26 Sep 2005|05:46pm]
so i have an interview at west suburban bank....could this be the end of target? lets hope so. i hate those fuckers.
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[26 Sep 2005|05:20pm]
I am the guy who came out to the entire school in his senior speech and got a standing ovation for his courage.

I am the girl who kisses her girlfriend on the sidewalk and laughs at those who glare.

We are the couple who planned and studied and got a damn good lawyer and BEAT the state that wanted to take our child away.

We are the ones who took martial arts classes and carry pepper spray and are just too dangerous to gay bash.

I am the transgender person who uses the bathroom that suits me, and demands that any complaining staff explain their complaint to my face in front of the entire restaurant -- and shares with my other trans friends which restaurants don't raise a stink.

I am the mother who told her lesbian daughter to invite her girlfriend over for dinner.

I am the father who punished his son for calling you a fag.

I am the preacher who told my congregation that love, not hate, is the definition of a true follower of God.

I am the girl who did not learn the meaning of "homosexual" until high school but never thought to question why two men might be kissing.

I am the woman who argues (quite loudly and vehemently) with the bigots who insist that you do not have the right to marry or raise children.

We are the high school class who agrees, unanimously, along with our teacher, that love should be all that matters.

If you agree, repost this. Do it. You don't have to be afraid. You can handle it. You're stronger than you think.

I am making a difference. Hate will not win
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home from work...again... [31 Jul 2005|02:15pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

i wish i had some happy entries to share with the other people that read this...if they do..but that just doesnt seem to happen very much. im still sadly at home. but workin my ass off to save. i also need to get ahold of lupe and see whats going on with the apartments. ive been workin furiously to get another job. ive put my application in at loads of other places...but alas no biters... to bad for them i say. if they only knew what kind of a worker they were passing up. whatever. keep trying. well i had a nice entry in my head...but it flew away...maybe ill remember it and post it but eh. dont hold your breath...

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and the counting continues [27 Jul 2005|03:14pm]
[ mood | sad ]

7 and 1/2 weeks and still going sadly strong :(

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[01 Jul 2005|05:31pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

so we talked about it on the way home from georges...and im still thinking it...

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ughhhh [22 Jun 2005|08:12am]
[ mood | brain pain ]

okay, just so everyone that was there last night knows....my head effin hurts but its all good. my neck actually hurts more then my brain. *takes asprin* i think during the fall i tensed my neck up waaaay to much. feels like i was in a car accident. my jaw muscles are all achy...but that could be because i clenched my teeth all night. that i dont know. john woke me up every couple hours last night to keep an eye on me just like nicole told him to do. he even didnt let me go to sleep till i was feeling considerably better. and the times he didnt wake me up he kinda shook me till i groaned at him to stop then rolled over. so he did his job for the night. well i suppose the tired elise should be off to a nice LONG day at work. 8:30-5...ohh boy. i have a lot to do today. this isnt going to be much fun. john if you read this like im pretty sure you will....dont forget about blockbuster. and if you do come to target. im going to be in the accesories/jewlery/boys/girls all day. mostly jewlery and accesories. alright everyone im outta here....i'll explain later if there's any questions about my brain (mostly to heidi because im pretty sure she might be kinda confused by this and nicole's entry) heidi should call me later tonight. say after 7ish. all shall be discussed then!

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[19 Jun 2005|03:12pm]
[ mood | awake ]

so its been a day and forever since ive updated this damn thing. this last week absolutely FLEW by. last monday john moved in. that was exciting. he's here and because im a horrid procrastinator were not totally clean in my room yet. maybe after this entry we will be. start workin on some stuff. monday was moving day...then after that was swimming...tuesday was the first unpacking day, wednesday was MSI concert FUCKING ROCKED!!!!...thursday was more unpacking and walking around gettin apartment #'s. friday was seeing family cuz the uncle is in town from MN....then it was some mall time and application filling out for john. saturday i worked ALLL day and john filled out some more applications and then it brings us to today. see? i had an eventful week. Ooo and for any of you who have tried to call me or send me a text message...i was 'smart' and went swimming with my cell phone. so its more then dead. i have a temporary back up but do you all remember that one where you couldnt read the front of it? well yea im back to using that one again. so i cant read any text messages and if you call and dont leave a voice mail i dont know who called me or sent any love so PLEASE leave me a voice mail. PLEASE!!

so to say the least this week has been good. i think im still trying to totally get used to the fact that john isnt visiting, that he is actually here for good. but so far things have been good. were doing all sorts of stuff and keeping on top of lots of other stuff too. and to be quite honest im happy. yep. very happy.

i havent been on the computer in like a week... but i honestly havent had the time to be. everything has been so busy and so nuts that the compuer actually hasnt been on.
some good news tho, even tho my dad has lost his job, they finally decided to give him the unemployment they tired to deny him. they had told him he was not elegible for it because his reason for loosing his job was a denialble circumstance. so on monday (the one john moved here((13th))) he had a conference call with the judge, some boss's from ex work, and the un-employment people and it was about a half an hour long and he pleaded his case and we got a letter in the mail like 2 days ago saying they had redecied about his un-employment and were going to give it to him. and we were like WOO! and then we joked around about how it would be cool if they would give him back pay for denying him and then the next day in the mail was a 900 buck check of back pay from the offices. we got the back stuff that they owed him. it was cool. he's been in an even better mood. so things have been good.

the jewlery girl at target had her baby which means that jewlery is officially mine. i had to go through it yesterday and fix it since i hadnt been there in a week. i think i did fairly well. went through and superzoned everything..and later this week i need to research everything because im running out of stuff and thats not good. my spinners on the casese will be empty if im not careful. so yea. not goood. nope *shakes head*

Ooo and we got a love seat from my neighbor across the street which we have to go get. she's gettin ancy about it. and im gonna go get it i just have to have time. its not like i could do it yesterday because i was at work all day and yea my dad told me to not worry bout it so were prolly going to have to go over there eventually here....like pretty soon. mmhmmm.....

well im runnin out of ideas here and my need for the backspace key is becoming more and more important. so im going to end this now. g'day eveyone :)

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[08 Jun 2005|02:04am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

so i sit here...im not tired...nope...not at all... theres so much running through my head. this upcomming monday...yes thats right the 13th.. john moves here. and where i cant even begin to understand everything that should be going on with him right now...he's making a huge commitment here. he's moving to a whole other state. and im just having my boyfriend move in. big life change for both of us...but might even be larger on his end. and everytime i think about this...i think about a journal entry i made a while ago.

lil girl are you ready for this? you ready for your own life? a life you've created with the person you love? what will come of this life? where will it lead? how long of a road comes with this? and most of all...i wonder everydayif everything will be alright. can we do this? can we make it? will this be a clean road? or a road with pot holes...or craters...or sinkholes...or dead ends? *sigh* i dunno..and i try to think of this as one day at a time..or am i just over thinking this whole thing and turning it into one over exagerated mess? maybe i am.

on a brighter note is spent this past weekend in WI. john graduated. it was a good thing to see. i got all sappy just like i did when you guys graduated too. i always love seeing the people i love accomplish something so great. and we saw madagascar..and had a cook out...and uhh...went out places...went to walgreens every night making that a kind of tradition. eh. it was good. and monday was fun to. ohhh yea...it was all cuz of the pizza...yea...right...:) *whistles innocently*

so im still moving things in my room...making room...cleaning up because i know its going to be a while before my room is clean again when john gets here. not to either of our faults...but because its going to be full in here.and cluttery. ohhh boy ;) story of my life you know...clutter. :D hehe...

well excitement...and nervous is gettin at me...so we'll see...
good thigns to come. i promise self...good things to come.

elise proclaims herself with a sinus infection. and if you want to know how i know...then ask. i'll get into grusome detail just for you. so let it be known that my head is suffering right now :P lol

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[17 May 2005|11:35pm]

I am Frylock from Aqua Teen Hunger Force!!

Which Aqua Teen Hunger Force character are you??
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[27 Apr 2005|01:45pm]
[ mood | DARRRTY ]

well i got a new camera. it fucken rocks. so pictures are going to start coming....second...my finger is almost healed. so more good stuff. hehehehe. and um...yea thats all for now. bye!

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because i can :) [25 Feb 2005|06:00pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

i dont hate anyone. i just wanna make my life known only to those who i know :)

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productive night indeed [25 Feb 2005|02:19am]
[ mood | cold ]

well tonight i learned a lot. lol. i learned john was going to minnasota. (Woo! good times in minnasota) i learned with enough effin brute strenth you can screw any screw into a hole *whistles innocently*, what johns makeup idea roz has looks like (i like it) and even the art talentless like myself can pull something great out their ass everyonce in a while.

randome quote i said to andy at steak n shake tonight---------------
(me)'i'll take a light socket and stick it up your ass and turn you on'
(andy) that was actually a clever saying because that could work. lol

at roz's tonight we painted her room. it went suprisingly fast. we painted 3 walls this pretty grey color, and one wall this dark coal black color. then on one of the grey walls were going to put chalkboard paint on it. so it'll be like her wall is a big chalk board. it'll be cool. so we painted and painted. i have paint splotches allllll over me. we also finished building roz's wardrob. that was fun. they built the majority of them last night but we put the shelf peg thingys in and attached the doors. so now they are going to weigh about 40 or more pounds each to carry back into the room. oh boy right? yea oh well. it'll be fun. so we did all that.

were having a party this saturday. its going to be fun. there's only going to be about 9 of us there so nothing grand and wonderful but a nice little get together for us before roz is totally out of the appartment.

then i have a horribly long sunday. but thats okay because i did it to myself. lol. i start at the dr sues thing sunday at 12:30 and it starts at 1 and then it goes to 3. then i start work at 4 and work till close. niiiice long day. but thats alright. it'll be fun. :) i like reading to lil kids then all i have to do when i close is super zone. and thats like nothing to do. specially since we just got done superzoning about a month ago. so its not that hard to do. we just have to be ready for inventory next week. oh joy. and im have most of my hours back next week too. which is a good thing. maybe they'll let me start early on sunday so i dont have an hour gap inbetween and then i'll be up to 37 or 38 hours including the extra hours from closing too. JOY!

i dont know why ive been babbing so much lately....usually my entries are so lil and theres nothing to them. this is nuts!

ive been wearing my mood right for the last few days now and its been all sorts of pretty colors cept right now its all ugly purple, not a pretty one but an ugly one.

and im stealig heidi's line because its such a wonderful line....now if i were shedding a uterine lining

i think everyone should read that and laugh at it. bwahahahahahahaha

well i did go to work at the ass crack of dawn today and it was nuts. Tom the LOD scanned a lots of hundreds of cd's and what not and he helped me scan dvd's and VHS's because before he had come to help me i had already scanned like 6000 by myself. i was going crazy on those things. then we scanned all the cd's on the floor too. then we had to research all of them and put out every cd in the stockroom as long as it wasnt a certain brand of cd thats not music artist related....more like theraputic cd's called 'the lifescape collection' thats a vender deal. lol. so i did that then i had to alphabetize them. i got to M after 2 hours of going through them. that was annoying. it looked like no one had ever done that before to them. so i left at my time and i was up till almost 2 myself then i crashed to a lil bit before 4 and have been up since. so about 4 1/2 hours sleep totall through out the day for me today. go me. :)

i think i should go to bed now. i can forsee a late night again tomorrow night doing more work at roz's house. we were proud of ourselves tonight...yea this is grossly long...

and im fucking freezing again. what the hell.

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[24 Feb 2005|01:24am]
[ mood | sadly awake ]

im AWAKE! flippen AWAKE!

lol. yea thats right im cool ;)

*************************************** (2:06 a.m.)
so yea...like NONE and ALL of you are going to believe what i managed to do. i set my wonderful alarm to get me up at 2 because i worked at 3. so it went off at '2' and i got up ready and left and so im driving out to work and im just chillen and i look at the bank and go 'wow its not that cold feeling for being 23 or whatever degrees it was, (then it flashed the time)'. so i was already on the way to target and it was barely a quarter to 2. what kinda shit is that? so i check every clock i can see from that bank to target and all of them say the same thing. so now im home agian and come now to find out i must have hit the wrong button on my clock because in its lil radio clock head it was 2...but in the real world...it woke me up at 1. yea thats right. so john. remember what time we hung up? yea i was up running and out the door by 1:40. now i cant go back to bed because i officially start work in 45 min and that would just be dumb. next time i work at an hour like this im checking every clock in the house before i leave. ugh. this is so lame. so yea. up at 1...go flipping me.

last night was an interesting time. johns mom gave us more wonderful house things. she gave us 2 crystal wine(cuz i cant spell the C drink :P) glasses. according to john they're really pretty. she tinged them when he was looking at them and i could hear them sing through the phone. i was like wow....*ahem* damn fuzzes in the eye. she said they were for incase we wanted to celebrate...new years...moving in....*gulp* that scary W word.... which then of course led us to actually talk about it. it was kinda fun. then i had to point out what we were taliing about then we just sorta laughed for a long time. then we were talking about highschool. and yea. our fort knox east aurora has won! wooo! lol. it was good.

so i think im going to sit here and babble until its just about time for me to leave. i only have a few things to check before i leave. gah! and one of the things i want to check is down! i wanna know whats goin on inside my bank. jeez. blah blah blah blah blah we appoligize for the inconvienince. feh. (thats right i used it)

i drove by roz's house and i her bedroom light was on, her and andy are building some of the furnature that go in there last night to this morning. and today (tonight) were painting her room. then i work friday during the day. im proud of myself. i managed to double my hours this week sinc i didnt have enough and i need as many as i can get. its important. because i need ALL the damn money i can get right now. (lotion break)*sigh* im bored. how come there's no one to talk to at 2 something in the morning.

i should be leaving soon. if i go soon enough i can stop at duncan doughnuts and get me a late thingy
mmm late. yay for early morning coffee. im going to need to today. i didnt get much sleep last night. i did stay in bed and fall asleep someone soon after i got off the phone with john. which is the earlist ive been to bed in AGES! omg. i dont wanna do that anytime soon again. i cant handle that early thing. i know it might be good for me but thers still so much that can be done. at least right now there is. i have a feeling when im on my own there'll be less to do so bed might seem like a better option. plus bed can be er...fun :) *cough*. lol. hi. hey loook! there's a mt dew can on my desk!

im listening to the animal song on winamp right now. i like this song. i want to live like animals, like animals, careless and free, like animals, i want to live..i want to run through the jungle the wind in my hair and the sand at my feet....when superstars and cannonballs are running through your head, television freakshow cops and robbers everywhere...animals and children tell the truth which one is more human now theres a thought you decide! hehe isnt that great!? i think so.

so i think im going to end this so i can watch a few shorts on newgrounds then go to work....*cough* again. *red* hehehehehe.

yea i know.
im great :D
*falls over*

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[23 Feb 2005|07:15am]
[ mood | awake ]

i had a dream about you last night...
nothing to be ashamed of.
i woke up 5 min before my alarm with a smile on my face.
dont remember much of the dream....just your face.

i love you

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